Sometimes to just let things be can be the hardest things to do. When we get attached to things and their outcomes, the Ego takes over and derails our path to progress and growth. Even though letting go is the right thing to do and the natural thing to practice. I find that this is probably THE biggest barrier to creativity.
Failing to learn how to tame the Ego can slow the process of learning. Focussing on the self becomes a way of life and a bad habit is formed. I guess this is true growing and learning. Part of the problem is that letting go feels like falling without seeing a definite floor - So obviously I am a rather unahppy person internally, because the true process of letting go has not even started because I don't think there was a true understanding of what that really means. It is not a single thing that one has to let go, it is a whole pattern and way of thinking that sometimes needs to be let go of. Basically the long and short of it is that remain steady in the face of outside upheaval as that will always be there. Rarely does one stop and think - what is holding me back ? what is it that I fear that I will fall into? Is it a hard concrete floor that I will fall flat on? is it a black hole that I will never come out of ? a painful place of some sort? Is it the fear of nothingness and emptiness? Is it the fear of not knowing what to believe in ? maybe all of the above. Who knows. Its different for different people.
I do envy calm and collected people - it seems as they go about their day with such ease - they find it easy to just let go or whatever it is that they aim for. These people just surrender and resign to their current state and way of being. I find that their inner peace is so still that I feel so guilty for having disrupted it. My aim is to stay least disruptive as possible to the ones with such inner peace. They seem at complete peace (within earthly parameters) with the life around them. They are soft and gentle like petals on the surface of the water that just float around from side to side as the breeze blows over them.
Another barrier to creativity is not listening. Listening 100% to something is also a way of letting go. I think proper ego-free listening is so important, not for what you want to listen, but listening to what is exactly being said. I keep missing to listen and not just listen selfishly. For some reason my inner state seems in such flux that sitting with myself has been very difficult. I think at times like this it would be a good idea to work through reclaiming spirituality hence the only way to control the Ego. Knowing oneness by learning the Tao. This means we are in unity or Yoga. It truly means letting go from the core of your being. Letting go of attachment to events that occur outside of you only then I think I may be happy. I have never experienced this before and feel like I have to start making a serious effort to truly practicing letting go of the attachment to the external world's comings and goings. It is very difficult to do so but I think it is possible only if there was more Faith.. Lack of Faith leads to the anxiety of just being. It is not a disorder as much as it is a lack of insight and the dearth of faith, which leads to disorderly thinking. I guess this is when we once again need to turn inwards and go for the tool box again. Go the books, go to Yoga, meditate, and pray. Learning to once again stay in the moment and sit with yourself and meet yourself where you are is much needed. There should be no place for self-loathing or guilt either. Breath easy and say Om. We go back to where we come from. Everything will go where it came from nothing will stay permanent. The Gayatri Mantra helps during difficult moments.
So letting go of Ego dominating thoughts is another barrier to creativity. There is lots to let go. But for now I am going to let go of some laziness and go to the woods for a hike and let nature sooth my soul.
Failing to learn how to tame the Ego can slow the process of learning. Focussing on the self becomes a way of life and a bad habit is formed. I guess this is true growing and learning. Part of the problem is that letting go feels like falling without seeing a definite floor - So obviously I am a rather unahppy person internally, because the true process of letting go has not even started because I don't think there was a true understanding of what that really means. It is not a single thing that one has to let go, it is a whole pattern and way of thinking that sometimes needs to be let go of. Basically the long and short of it is that remain steady in the face of outside upheaval as that will always be there. Rarely does one stop and think - what is holding me back ? what is it that I fear that I will fall into? Is it a hard concrete floor that I will fall flat on? is it a black hole that I will never come out of ? a painful place of some sort? Is it the fear of nothingness and emptiness? Is it the fear of not knowing what to believe in ? maybe all of the above. Who knows. Its different for different people.
I do envy calm and collected people - it seems as they go about their day with such ease - they find it easy to just let go or whatever it is that they aim for. These people just surrender and resign to their current state and way of being. I find that their inner peace is so still that I feel so guilty for having disrupted it. My aim is to stay least disruptive as possible to the ones with such inner peace. They seem at complete peace (within earthly parameters) with the life around them. They are soft and gentle like petals on the surface of the water that just float around from side to side as the breeze blows over them.
Another barrier to creativity is not listening. Listening 100% to something is also a way of letting go. I think proper ego-free listening is so important, not for what you want to listen, but listening to what is exactly being said. I keep missing to listen and not just listen selfishly. For some reason my inner state seems in such flux that sitting with myself has been very difficult. I think at times like this it would be a good idea to work through reclaiming spirituality hence the only way to control the Ego. Knowing oneness by learning the Tao. This means we are in unity or Yoga. It truly means letting go from the core of your being. Letting go of attachment to events that occur outside of you only then I think I may be happy. I have never experienced this before and feel like I have to start making a serious effort to truly practicing letting go of the attachment to the external world's comings and goings. It is very difficult to do so but I think it is possible only if there was more Faith.. Lack of Faith leads to the anxiety of just being. It is not a disorder as much as it is a lack of insight and the dearth of faith, which leads to disorderly thinking. I guess this is when we once again need to turn inwards and go for the tool box again. Go the books, go to Yoga, meditate, and pray. Learning to once again stay in the moment and sit with yourself and meet yourself where you are is much needed. There should be no place for self-loathing or guilt either. Breath easy and say Om. We go back to where we come from. Everything will go where it came from nothing will stay permanent. The Gayatri Mantra helps during difficult moments.
So letting go of Ego dominating thoughts is another barrier to creativity. There is lots to let go. But for now I am going to let go of some laziness and go to the woods for a hike and let nature sooth my soul.
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